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11:11 pm
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Wow, I guess its been awhile since I posted, well, I guess there hasnt been too much for me to post about. Summer was hot and uncomfortable, I am actually glad its getting cooler. Pennsic, while it was wonderful to see everyone, and I wish I could see everyone more often, it just wasnt a great war, I mean, I've never had a terrible one, but I've also never had a worse one, well, enough of that. Life goes on. I just need to do something a little better with my life, retail isnt the way to go,lol. No offense Barnes & Noble....I just wish I had a clue as to what I'd like to do, I feel scatterbrained in everyway. I would like to think something will just happen, but its getting a bit late for that. Well, something will happen sooner or later. I just hope to have a good autumn and winter, look forward to visiting friends, yule, etc...and just try to be positive. Hope all is well with everyone out there...Bye!
Current Mood: frustrated
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01:27 pm
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Happy Saint Patricks Day!!!!!
Hello to all, I hope you all have a happy and healthy weekend, enjoy!!!!
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01:30 am
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Christmas....
Hello everyone, I just wanted to wish all my friends and loved ones out there a Happy Holiday, I miss you all....Love Finn/Ray
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02:42 pm
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Negativity
Sorry if this is a babbling rant, but thats just the way it comes out. I've just been really bottoming out lately, and everytime I try to cheer up, its like a plane trying to take off, it gets in the air and seems to nosedive right back into the runway. I'm certainly not happy where I am, I don't know where I want to be... I go to work, come home, and lock myself in my room, that seems to be my life. I try to do things every week, but nothing is fulfilling any more. Things were looking so positive once, and out of nowhere, everything changed, I dont know what happened, and don't know what I can do. I won't give up, but I have no motivation to be happy either. its like a slump that has no end in sight. I find joy like a lightning strike, it quickly illuminates my life and is gone in the blink of an eye. the only things I want in life just dont seem to want me....
I guess I have to get ready for work. Today seems like a great day to use a sick day, but then I'll just be sitting right here anyway,lol.
Sorry to put a damper on anybody's day. I just type, reread, and look for answers.
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Crazy
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03:16 am
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Bummed
Wow, its been a while, again. I was going to go to sleep, then I read the Steve Irwin died. Man that sucks, it just really killed my mood which wasnt that great to begin with. He is one of those people that you watch and always say "He's gonna get himself killed one day" and then when it happens, you can't believe it. I used to watch his show all the time, but it wasnt the show that was special, it was how passionate he was about what he did, he wasn't an actor, he was doing what he loved. Well, he will be missed....
Current Location: home:(
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: none
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01:39 pm
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Ramblings....
Hmmmnnn... Guess I've missed a few days on here. Well, not much new, life is kind of blah, I have just been trying to think ahead. I have plans for the future, probably too many, but I guess thats better than having none:) I will start taking some classes next month, I am excited about that. I just need to decide which direction I want to head in and go.. I want to go to Europe in November but need someone to join me, It will be flying NY(JFK) to Dublin for a day or 2, then connecting to Barcelona for a day or 2, then boarding the Voyager of the Seas for an 11 night cruise back to Miami, with stops in Lisbon and Funchal, Madiera(I think thats how its spelled) Whole trip will cost about $1000 a person with transatlantic airfare included(not from Miami though) and should be a fun trip:) but cruise is based on double occupancy. I am also dabbling with the idea of trying to travel a decent sized portion of the earth in a year or so, depending on my credit card debt,lol. Ive just had an urge to see more of the world, especially Japan, Australia, and New Zealand. I have wondered why I have never just went and did it instead of talking about it. I know I AM talking about it now, but I do plan on doing some, if nor all of it soon. Not much else, life kind of sucks, But I have no control over that... Pennsic is on the horizon though...I will try to update a little more too:)
Current Location: home
Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: birds outside my window and an annoying dog 2 doors down....
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12:25 am
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Vent....
I don't know, I have been very confused, my life is spinning out of control, There are very few good things and too many bad things. You try to block the bad out, to put on blinders and only see what you want to see, but sooner or later, the dam is going to burst. The one thing that makes everything else ok cant hold back all of the bad and then the world comes down to smother you. I live for a beam of sunshine in a world that is too dark for me to handle. Sometimes I am oblivious to the world around me, and wait too long to do what I need to do, until its too late. I can grasp heaven but I am shackled to hell, and it seems like the shackles are stronger than my grasp. Fantasy and reality blur into one, but then, get yanked apart. Life is funny.
I need to seriously evaluate my life, because it really sucks right now......
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: Humming to myself
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10:19 am
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Wasting my day off
I should post more often, its something I was really good at for about a month then kind of just flaked off. Oh well, nothing to do about that now. I have today off from work, and can't really think of anything to do, as of now, I think I might go to the zoo for a bit. Its a nice ride and it seems nice enough out, I just don't know if many animals will be out, it is January after all. I was also thinking about going to the ocean, which is about 2-3 hours east, not a bad ride, well I guess I have about 35 minutes to decide, it's about 10:25 right now and I need to get out of here by 11 otherwise I will feel like I wasted the day,lol. Or I could always just drive and go nowhere which was my original destination, just drive and clear the mind, or most of it, there is always something on my mind.....
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Irish Music
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12:31 pm
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Happy Holidays.....
Just wanted to wish everyone and their loved ones Merry Christmas or whatever holiday you are celebrating, the only thing that matters is that it is happy. Have fun and be safe....
Love,
Ray
Current Mood: complacent
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06:52 pm
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Counting down the days...
Yay, Christmas is almost here, but it will soon be over, then it will be 2006, I did my shopping, not too much, all in all, it will be a pretty low key christmas this year. I hope everyone who reads this has a happy holiday, has a good time, and spends quality time with loved ones. And have a happy new year!!!
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Raymonds Lullaby
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08:32 am
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Yay, Yule
Well, I just got thome from NJ last night, and I am a mess, too much drinking, too little sleep, and too much driving. But I had a blast! I was able to see some close friends, and people who I only get to talk to otherwise.... It sucks living so far away sometimes. The food was very good and the hotel was nice, not perfect, but much better than the last one. All in all it was a lot of fun and I hope everyone got home safe. Pennsic is so far away.....
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Dammit Janet
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11:10 pm
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Sorry, I Like these
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last Friday I saved a busload of nuns in Angola (326 points). Last Sunday I committed genocide... Sorry about that, ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) lilkender (-5000 points). Last Tuesday I set jeepdog's puppy on fire (-66 points). In March I helped thepetey hide a body (-173 points). In June I ate my brussel sprouts (1 points).
Overall, I've been naughty (-4912 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!
Sincerely,
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Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last Tuesday I turned javadave4 in for running naked in the mall (3 points). Last Saturday I pulled lilkender's hair (-5 points). Last Wednesday I donated bone marrow to isotta001 in a life-saving procedure (300 points). In August I gave troublesome1 a life-saving blood transfusion (50 points). Last Monday madwolf and I robbed a bank (-50 points).
Overall, I've been nice (298 points). For Christmas I deserve a red Radio-Flyer wagon!
Sincerely,
finnberwolfe |
Current Mood: restless
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10:57 pm
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I Guess Ive Been Naughty
Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last Wednesday I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points). In October I helped thepetey hide a body (-173 points). In November I gave madwolf a Dutch Oven (-10 points). In March I put money in kittenkatt's expired parking meter (14 points). In July I pushed jeepdog in the mud (-17 points).
Overall, I've been naughty (-167 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!
Sincerely,
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Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Heaven Tonight - HIM
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10:09 pm
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late....
Wow, I guess I should post, its been a while. My sister and her husband came by for Thanksgiving and for the weekend, it was really nice, I miss them and dont really get to see them as much as I would like to. Hopefully, I will see them in a couple of weeks near christmas. I saw Harry Potter and really liked it(I never read the books) I really enjoyed this one, its my favorite of the series. Last night we went to eat at one of those Brazillian Barbeque places, Oh My God, I thought I was going to die, I havent been eating much lately and that was a shock to the system! But it was fun....Yule is about a week and a half away, I'm really excited about going up and seeing people, it should be fun. And then Christmas.....
See everyone later, and I'll try to post more:)
Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: HIM
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06:29 pm
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Happy Thanksgiving!!!!
Happy Thanksgiving!!!!
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01:42 pm
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Working nights:(
I hate working nights, but I guess theres nothing weird about that. Today is my 3:30 to 12 shift, but, I have my weekends for the most part, so who am I to complain. It is cloudy and raining on and off today, they say we really need the rain so I guess that is good, but I like my sunshine:)
I guess its time to start getting ready, its a short post, but I dont want to leave too many big gaps without a post, lol, bye
Current Mood: okay
Current Music: John Lennon- Nobody Told Me
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07:50 pm
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Ahhh, Saturday...
It is nice to have Saturday off, I didn't do much today. I mowed the lawn one last time before winter arrives, went out to lunch and kind of just hung out. I look forward to going to fight practice tomorrow since I cant go on wednesday nights right now because of work, I could ask them to change that, but I have my weekends right now and dont want to push my luck. Well, it seems like a good time to have a drink and relax....
Me and My Mom
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Libertines
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09:23 am
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Back in the Swing of Things
I went back to work yesterday:( well, it had to happen sooner or later, I just prefer later, lol
Things werent as bad as I thought they would be. I guess I have job security since everyone was delighted I was back because they hated doing my job. Now I just have to look forward to Yule, in early December, and christmas, in late December, they both seem so far away:( Yet yule is now just one month. Wow, 2006 will be here before we know it. well, time to get ready to go to work!
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Depeche Mode
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06:36 pm
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old picture
hehe, just wanted to post this for mannix
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08:43 am
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Home Again:(
I am now back home, with the exception of today, my vacation is now over. I had a most wonderful trip which normal life will not be able to compete against. But getting out for a while has been neccesary to help me see where I want to be and what I want to do. I must say, it was good to be home, even if just for a week. I need to start doing more things, I think I am slowly dying where I am here, and I am not willing to accept that.
Well, this isn't a good post for me, I had fun, now I'm home
Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: NIN
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